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You are stronger than yesterday.

In a way, Sejal was the common link between two worlds that stood poles apart in every sense. 
(Page 25)

The above quote is from my recent book - The Shadow of Darkness (It ends where it was started)

What came into your mind when you read it? Why do you think i posted it here? For my book promotion? No. i posted it here because it's the reality told bravely through a fiction story where Sejal leads and loses, wins and performs. People affected by a traumatic episode in their childhood years not only struggle to live a life but they constantly thrive to bring meaning to it. They look for a stronger purpose than the mere survival everyday. In my words, they are fighters with brave souls.

Some might say Sejal is my lead character and that is why i talk her as a fighter. Nope, once again. She is a fighter and that's why she is my protagonist. She is beautiful and intelligent, sensitive and brave, caring and friendly. She has the colors of a good human being with downsides of being the very same. She loses confidence, nightmares haunt her; she likes to lick her wounds before anyone can see them, she looks for support instead of being brave all the time (which is fairly impossible!), she needs love in order to find herself...The Shadow of Darkness is her story told in an untold manner.

Childhood trauma has a long lasting affect. There are fair chances of it outgrowing the person. He continues to live in the particular piece of past from where there is no escape. The episode keeps playing in a loop until he is exhausted, wishing he could do something to erase that memory or direct in a different direction. The exhaustion comes largely because of the inability to do something, anything about it but when the last kick of failure puts the final bolt, it is done...until the cycle repeats itself all over again.

When life seems challenging enough to lead, i tell myself to take it one day at a time. One day until it's all over. Traumas take their time to binge on the person. It makes the person fragile, introduces a new low every day. What you think is impossible to handle today, well then, hello! Tomorrow you may have a bigger challenge to face and worse, deal with. 

And then you know you were stronger the previous day. Because you survived alright to face the next sun rise, the bigger challenge. And somewhere, this weird realization, gives you strength. If i survived yesterday, i might as well be able to do it again. All i need is a sun set. 


The final teaser of The Shadow of Darkness talks about the same - the sun sets, high tides, trauma, the questions we ask everyday to ourselves, and the kind of love we need to overcome them.

And then you discover this pattern where you were stronger the previous day, how you did it and what it asked from you to breathe and keep fighting. It helps you to prepare for the coming challenges. You stick because you have no option. 

The only option is to face it upfront.

P.S. If you like this tiny write up about dealing with childhood trauma, you may as well like to read my story that triggered this post. Just click on The Shadow of Darkness anywhere in this post and it'll lead you to its Amazon Buy Book page. You can do this. i know you are strong enough to spend some money today. :) Happy reading, only if you buy it.

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