Me: i am happy!!
Life: Lol! One sec.
Sounds familiar? Well, i hope not.
What else to write? i have just begun and i am clueless. i peer out, at the dark night, the glowing lights of the houses; i hear the water purifier running its course, i hear running fans, meant to comfort; except for all these muffled noises, the house is so utterly damn silent. i accidentally watched a second long clip of a horror video today on FB and now i am scared! Even though i did stop the video and turned off the sound immediately yet One Second was enough! i wonder. One Second. How it can have such huge effect on someone. Now i am not sure whether i'd be able to sleep tonight. i simply don't wish the horror lady shouting from above the wardrobe be welcomed in my dream.
On more serious note, no one knows the future. No one understands the past. What remains to juggle with is - the present. i was on my swing this morning, analyzing all three together. Would it be not cool if there was no past? Or, no future? Just the present to cherish and remember? We could die everyday, we could born everyday and live that One Day to its optimum potential? Imagine what it'd be like to be just a day old! The transformation from a baby to an old person would be quick, that's for sure. We could have the innocence of childhood as well as naivety of teenage. We could enjoy falling in love. There would be no time for heart-break. Adulthood would not look too terrible as there would be no future to look at and hence, no worries for career or studies. Just hangin' out with friends and delicious dishes from Mom. Quickly, maturity would hit and we would want to go back to childhood. And guess what? The wish could be completed just the next day! That'd be incredible! And then would come the old age - bent backbone, weak knees, poor eye sight, no teeth - but then again, death would soon come and i hope it to be smooth and quick like other stages. Crack of dawn and bingo! We are born once again!
i don't know about you but i am sort of enjoyin' this weird imagination. It has actually put on a smile on my face; something that i had forgotten today. Now i think i shouldn't have said happy. i should have stayed mute or better, should have said the opposite. What do you think life would have to say if i had uttered the opposite? Let's find out.
Silence. Why can't i hear life saying anything here? Why am i not getting any reply? If life has decided to play another joke, now is not the time. That'd be...selfish. Anyway, we can't live the day i described above neither life can turn things upside down in a second. All we need to do is to think whatever is right, instead of what's wrong. And that'll make all the difference.
13 minutes later...
What just happened, i had to come back here and write about it. i would be selfish if i didn't! After the final sentence, i hit Publish and went to brush my teeth. i had just come out thinking time to have my dinner. Jus then the door bell rang. i wondered. Who could it be at this point of night? i screened the visitor through the door hole and i found a guy standing in somewhat an orange dress. It did not take me one second. In fact, it took only a split of second thinking whether the horror clip lady has decided to change the gender as well as the color of her dress and wants to gain access rather by ringing the door bell. With pounding heart, i opened the door and there it was! The Amazon guy. He had come here at this time to deliver my new phone!!
Time to admit something. Never have i ever received anything from Amazon this late. It was the first time. i took the package and said to him that he could have delivered it tomorrow instead of working so late. He was polite. Definitely not a horror character. He said my package was the last item of his day. He said and went away but not before i thanked him, the happy surprise and pleasant shock still knocking me over.
If there could be a way to express the exact emotions...well, there is no way really. i held the package for a few moments and felt the happiness wash over me. i just could not stop smiling, could not stop feeling the rush of happiness. Sometimes life does not reply. It prefers to stay silent and work regardless.
Now i can hear what did the life say when i said i was not happy.
Life: Lol! 13 minutes.
i can not thank it enough! Life is life. Nice to know it's not dead. Definitely an experience not to forget. Ever!